A DAY IN LIFE | TAKING MYSELF ON A RELAXING DATE

I've been having a hard time with myself lately, mostly struggling with eating disorders. Lately, see my reflection in the mirror somewhat extremely challenging. I often skip meals or not eating at all, I also caught myself having an idea of purging again.

It's hard.

I told my partner about my struggles, and he offered both comfort and assurance. But healing comes from within - it comes from me. I can't rely my healing journey on others, no matter how supportive and helpful they are, if I can't fight this, it will never work.

So, I decided to have a pretty chill, relaxing day today. 

This is a day in my life in Ubud, Bali.

I started my day with doing tension and trauma release exercise. I have been doing this routine for days now. The exercise helps me to have an easier day to get through.

After showered and got ready. I did my skincare as usual, put a bit of powder and lipsticks. I've been loving these lip combinations both products are from twentywendy. First, I applied a matte balm in the shade ruk and then a gloss in the shade dschubba.

Around 11 am-ish, I started to walk. I walk almost every day here which is a good thing. It is so therapeutic! I love seeing sceneries, shops, and things around. This time, the distance from my place to the cafe is around 1.2 km which is good enough as I got around 1.355 steps!

So thankful I found the instagram ads randomly last night because this cute cafe called Littletalk which is very cosy! It's in the quieter area (most places in Ubud are quiet and relaxing, but this one is so quiet!), so it's perfect for studying or working.

I did my self check-in journal, worked on our wedding mood board, and also a bit of wedding planning. Wedding planning somehow so therapeutic for me. Some people said it can add up to your stress, but for me, it is relaxing! Maybe because I love planning and organising. 

I ordered iced matcha latte, tasted alright. I haven't found the best matcha latte here so far! As for lunch, I got myself a chicken burger. After having session yesterday with my psychiatrist, he told me to eat whatever I want and slowly. I tend to do purging, so to prevent that, to eat as slowly as I can. I felt pukey after I ate, not because the food, but because I felt a bit guilty to eat as per usual. However, I managed to get through it. Yay!

I can say this idea of taking myself on a date worked! As I'm writing this, I feel slightly better. This is only one idea, I will have a better day tomorrow and so are you!